A Glimpse of Glory, A Touch of Grace
Sitting in the Tir Na Nog in Union Square, Somerville, on a recent Wednesday evening, watching the Red Sox game on a huge projection screen, I noticed that NESN, the New England Sports Network, was looking for stories from fans about their Red Sox experience. I remembered a story I wrote some years ago and thought I might send it in. I did so today and then thought I might as well post it here. I'd sent it off once to see if anyone in Boston might be interested in publishing it, but no one was. Still, it's a good story, about a time of innocence and hope, before 9/11, the nightmare of Iraq, and the election of America's woefully inept boy president.
Larry
A Day at Fenway
We got up about 10 o’clock and decided to walk over to Fenway Park. It was Saturday morning and Devon, my eleven-year-old son, had arrived from the Cape the night before. Like his dad, he loved baseball. The Sox had a game against the Twins at 1 o’clock, and I had noticed an ad on TV, as Devon and I watched the Sox play Friday night, saying the Sox would have $6.00 grand stand seats and $4.00 bleacher seats available for the game. When we got to the stadium, I was told at the ticket office that this was only for Little League ball players “in uniform” and their families. I asked how much two bleacher seats would be and was told $18.00, but then was asked if Devon was my son and offered two grand stand seats on the left-field line for $21.00, a “family” rate. I bought the tickets.Never having sat on the left-field side of Fenway Park, finding our seats was an adventure and a treat. It seemed to me that there was not a bad seat in the house on the left-field side. (If you’ve ever sat in the bleachers or on the right-field grand stands at Fenway, you’ll understand.) Our seats were about half way up in the grand stands (Section 30) near where the seating juts out into left field. Devon wanted to go down near the field to see if he could get an autograph from one of the Twins players who were warming up in the outfield. It proved to be a fruitless endeavor, although Paul Molitar was kind enough to chat briefly with Devon when all of the other players--”Chuck Knoblaoch is a jerk, Dad”--simply ignored his entreaties. While Devon was seeking autographs, he got to know a man and his son sitting in the front row of seats who told him the two seats behind him and his son were his and Devon and I were welcome to sit there if we liked. We did.
Devon had brought several baseball cards to the game with him. In plastic cases he had Mike Greenwell, Mo Vaughn, and Tim Naehring’s rookie card. Tim Naehring was playing third base and Devon decided to see if he could get Naehring’s attention and get him to sign his rookie card between innings. He’d call out to Naehring while Tim took ground balls and hold up the rookie card and Naehring would sometimes shake his head and move his lips as if to say, “I can’t do it now” to Devon. Still, Devon called out to him between every inning, hoping Tim might at least come over at the end of the game and sign his card. Didn’t happen. At the end of the game (which the Sox won), Tim Naehring headed into the locker room and did not look back.
After the game, Devon wanted to hang out around Fenway and look at baseball cards and maybe catch sight of a real live ballplayer and get an autograph. When we had first walked over to the stadium, we had seen Troy O’Leary, the Red Sox outfielder, standing in the parking lot where the players park (we did not know this then). He may have been talking with his wife. Anyway, Devon wanted to get his autograph but did not have anything for him to sign, so he quickly ran over to a table the player’s wives had set up to collect donations for a food drive they were conducting outside the ballpark. By the time Devon got back to where Troy’d been, Troy was gone. Disappointing, but, hey, these things happen.
We walked over to Kenmore Square, so I could get a cup of coffee. On the way, we came upon a young woman passing out free sample cans of Snapple and she gave Devon a can of his favorite Snapple Iced Tea. “Snapple’s my favorite, Dad. Do you think this is okay to drink?” he asked, before popping the cold can open. We went into Au Bon Pain in Kenmore Square. I had a large iced coffee and Devon had an onion bagel, toasted with cream cheese. He was feeling pretty content and pleased, putting his feet up and commenting on how neat it was to be sitting and eating a bagel with cream cheese so near to Fenway Park. He finished his bagel and we headed back to the park.
The crowds had begun to arrive for the 6 o’clock game. The gates were shut and the streets were full of vendors, fans, and one group of Teamsters picketing a local bar with a huge banner: “This buds not for you!” stretched across the road. Devon got a sticker declaring the teamsters’ sentiment and immediately stuck it on his shirt. We walked down the street behind the Green Monster and around the ball park, coming to the area I suddenly realized really was the place from which the players would exit at the end of the game. Frank White, then the Red Sox first-base coach and former Kansas City second baseman, was standing inside the fence and Devon (although he was not sure who Frank White was), seeing the man’s uniform, asked him for his autograph. He graciously gave it and told Devon the other players might sign autographs at the end of the game but, then again, probably would not. But Devon had his first autograph. We went on around the ballpark, to where the wives had their table set up and most of the card vendors had set up shop. The wives were not at the tables but the tables were being manned by a group of guys from a Brockton Drug and Alcohol Rehab Program. They said the wives might arrive later, were in fact expected. Devon had this plan, you see: Perhaps one of the wives could help him get an autograph?
We walked around in search of adventure. Devon studiously looked at the baseball cards available, the photographs, the sunglasses--”Dad,” says Devon, talking without moving his lips, “that guy does not move his lips when he talks”--the baseball caps--”Dad, that hat is only $10.00”--a good price--”That’s a good price”--and all of the people milling about, slowly filling up the street. Devon asks a woman at a table if she is one of the wives. She isn’t. None are present (and none ever show). We walk back down near the players’ parking area and Devon asks the guys at the food-drive table if he can help. They do not encourage him but the next thing I know (I’m sitting atop a fire-hydrant, having given myself over to letting Devon have his day at Fenway and keeping an eye on him) he is walking around shouting, “Somebody’s hungry! Somebody needs your help today! It does not matter what you give! Everything helps! Every little bit helps! Help us out today! Somebody’s hungry!” He has picked up the chant from a young man who has been working the crowd all afternoon, seeking donations for the food drive. I find Devon’s participation amusing and attractive. I admire his willingness and lack of self-consciousness. One of the guys at the table offers him a cold can of Cherry Soda (he accepts, it’s a hot day), another offers a bag of chips. He declines. “Not now,” he says, “But thank you anyway.” He does his work, calling out among the other voices, thanking people who drop off bags of food at the table or give coins. I watch in amazement. Delighted by what I see, glad to be able to see it.
Someone comes out from inside the stadium and asks Devon if he would like to go to the game. “Would you like tickets to tonight’s game?” “Well, yes,” says Devon, “I’m here with my dad and we went to the first game and we can’t afford tickets to another game.” “Let me see what I can do,” says the man and goes off in the direction of the ticket office. Devon goes back to his work. The man comes back in about ten minutes and hands me two tickets to the game. “There not together,” he says, “but they are good seats in the Grand Stands on the right-field line.” I thank him and show the tickets to Devon. He says thank you and goes back to work. One of the guys at the table comes over to me and asks, “Didn’t he hear me say he was in line for some tickets?” “No,” I say, “I don’t think so, but it is great that he got the tickets. He wasn’t helping out for a reward. He just wanted to help.” “I told him he would be blessed,” says the man, “and guess this is his blessing.” “I guess it is,” I say.
Devon and I headed into Fenway just as the game was beginning. Going in search of our seats, I noted one was in Section 10 and one in Section 11. I would seat Devon in 11 and go to 10 and watch him. But there were several empty seats in 11. I asked if anyone was sitting in them and, as no one was, we sat down together. Devon said he wanted to go down to the Red Sox dugout and see if he could see the players. He said he would come right back. I kept an eye on him as he made his way through the box seats to the dugout area, where he could lean over the photographers’ box and peek in.
When he returns, he has news of two empty seats behind the dugout, where two young men sitting in a row of four seats have told him no one is sitting. We can sit there if we like, he says, so off we move, into two more rather special seats located (I have to say) by Devon’s unerring intuition and Saturday’s magic.
During the game (which the Sox lose 6 to 0), Devon goes down to the dugout in between innings and looks in. Around the fifth inning, he comes back with the news that he has seen Tim Naehring. “He did one of those cartoon looks, dad. He looked over. He looked away, and then he looked back very quickly and made a face.” “He was probably very surprised to see you--this little boy who shouted at him and held up his rookie card during the first game,” I said. “He probably thinks I’m stalking him, dad.” “Maybe,” I say, “he’ll come out of the dugout after the game and give you his autograph.” Faint hope. Naehring wasn’t in the line-up for the second game.
Our original plan had been to walk home after the 6 o’clock game started, watch it on TV, and (if it was not too late) return to the players’ parking area and see if Devon could get an autograph. Now we were at the game and I could see we were likely to be hanging out when it was over.
At the end of the game, we walk out of Fenway and head toward the parking area where we have discovered the players park their cars. We stop where there is an opening--a tear--in the fabric hanging behind the fence. A doorway is on the other side of the parking lot; it is open and we can see into it. A ramp leads in and down a yellow corridor where a lone (empty) red chair stands. It is the door the players use to get into and out of Fenway. If Tim Naehring is in there, he’ll have to come up that ramp and out that door. Devon stands there with his pen. I edge a little away from the tear in the screen, not knowing what to expect.
We stood there for about twenty minutes, with a group of about a dozen people, several of whom were hoping to get autographs, and one woman (there with her teenage daughter) who seemed to want nothing more than a glimpse of Tim Naehring--”He is such a hunk! He is so hot!” Someone came up the ramp and out the door. “It’s Mike Stanley, dad, he’s my favorite player!” Mike did not approach the fence but walked off through the parking lot. Devon was off like a shot, hoping to catch him. I watched him go. He came running back a few minutes later. “What happened? Get an autograph?” “No.” “Where’d he go?” “To his car, I guess.” “Must have had a date.” We settled back to wait.
In short order, players and coaches begin coming out the door. Mo Vaughn emerges. Lots of shouts, “How about an autograph, Mo?” “Not tonight guys.” And Mo is gone. Tim Wakefield. No response. Mike Greenwell. “It’s been a long day guys.” He’d struck out to end the game and could not have been feeling too good. Other players hurry out. Stan Belinda comes out with is wife. He is carrying a child, and his car is very close to the fence. He has to come very close to the fence to get into his car. The questions begin: “Can you sign an autograph, Mr. Belinda?” “Got time for an autograph?” No response. “Can you ignore me, Mr. Belinda?” someone asks. Stan Belinda hears. “I’ve got a baby in my hands. What do you want? A baby or an autograph?” He is not pleased. He secures the baby in the car and comes over to the fence. He reaches for Devon’s pen and, as Devon pushes a piece of paper (which Frank White had signed earlier in the day) through the fence, takes it in his hand. Belinda tries to sign his autograph but the pen doesn’t work. He thrusts the pen and paper back at Devon, apologizes for having to hurry, and he is off. Bummer. But Devon is well prepared and does not seem upset. He has another pen.
Jim Rice, Boston’s great left-fielder and current batting coach, comes out. The shouting begins again. I am feeling very tense. These ball players seem very high-strung, like thoroughbreds (no disrespect intended) ready to bolt at the slightest noise. “Got time for an autograph, Mr. Rice?” “Can you sign an autograph, Mr. Rice?” “The question isn’t, can I?” says Jim, “but will I?” He sounds angry, but he comes over to the fence and gives Devon his autograph. That is it. No one else. “Thank you, Jim” I say, and he is off. Other players come out. Some we know; some we don’t. All avoid the fence, hurrying away, as if the fence were dangerous.
The game has now been over for quite a while. Forty-five minutes, an hour. Most of the bystanders are gone. Lights are going out in the stadium. We’ll be heading home soon, I am sure, without Tim Naehring’s autograph, but I do not say anything to Devon. I’d said earlier in the evening that Naehring might not even be in the locker room. “He may have left early, since he did not play in the game.” It made sense to me. How much longer should we wait? Most everyone else is gone. Why wait? Why hope? Why expect? It is going on ten o’clock. We have been at Fenway for close to twelve hours.
Someone steps into the light pouring out of the door. He walks slowly up the ramp. A big guy. Broad shouldered and muscular. “It’s him, dad,” says Devon, “It’s Tim Naehring.” “It is?” I say, turning to look, as if I had not already seen him. It is Tim Naehring, I can see, appearing before us like a mythical figure. A god, made flesh, is walking towards us, mounting the ramp to the parking lot. “Can I get your autograph, Tim?” asks Devon. Tim Naehring seems to flinch and take a little stagger-step, as if he’s just been hit by something. Not hard, but just enough to stop him for a second. He sees this little boy standing there outside the fence, right in front of him, the baseball cap on backwards Ken Griffey, Jr. style, the same little boy who’d been calling out to him between innings--hours ago, when the sun was high--during the first game when he’d been playing third base, the little boy who’d caused him to do a double-take during the second game when he looked out of the dugout--there he stood, the same little boy.
Tim Naehring walks slowly over to the fence. It is dark and very late. “Can I get your autograph, Mr. Naehring?” Devon asks. “Sure,” says Tim, reaching out and taking Devon’s pen in his hand. Devon begins to tremble. “I’ve got your rookie card. Could you sign it for me? I’ve got to get it out of this cover.” Devon stands there desperately trying to get the card out of the clear plastic case he keeps it in. His fingers are shaking. I keep waiting for Tim to bolt, praying he won’t. Finally, Devon has the card in his hand and hands it to Tim. Tim takes it, steps back (I think to catch a bit of light, so he can see to sign the card), and raises the pen. He signs the card and hands it carefully back to Devon. “Thank you, Tim,” says Devon. “Thank you, Tim,” I say. Someone pushes a program through the fence. Tim takes it and, using Devon’s pen, signs it. He hands Devon’s pen back through the fence. “I’m sorry if I was bugging you today,” says Devon, apologizing for having called out to him all day. “Don’t worry about it, kid, it’s okay.” And Tim Naehring turns and is gone, disappearing into the shadows, as you’d expect a super hero to do.
Devon and I set off for home, walking to my place in the Back Bay. “That’s all I really wanted, dad,” says Devon, as we walk in the shadows of Fenway Park. “I know,” I say, not quite believing this has really happened. “Let me see that,” I say. Devon hands the card to me. It is now securely back in its plastic case. “Tim Naehring” it says, written so neatly and so clearly that it looks fake, but we know it isn’t. We watched Tim sign it. I cannot believe it. Thanks, Tim, you made my day, and you certainly made Devon’s. It was a long day, for you, for me, for “Greenie”, but it ended perfectly, as any day may, with a glimpse of glory and a touch of grace. Baseball is like that.
